Friends : 1

Friends : 1

    I was never lionized amongst my friends, but yes I was indeed a good and ideal friend.

When I define the word friend I get things like:

    Someone you like, Someone who makes you laugh, Someone who’s always there for you, Someone who knows the worst of you and still loves you, Someone you trust,

Those all sound warm-and-fuzzy, but none of those are a definition.
There were many types of friends in my small life. Let’s say many kinds of friends.
The one you don’t see often but are like best friends. They are the best ones to have. Not talking about every single person you know you see after a long time. The archaic friends with whom you made some golden memories in your life. Everyone has such friends in their life.
And the other one are of very fascinating type. The one you meet everyday. Now these are the most peculiar one. They are like drugs to you, in spite of knowing that drugs are tend to harm  you, to hurt you,  you still get pulled towards it, similarly  happens with them. You know they can be a little irrelevant, irritating,  and even in between they make you indignant , nevertheless you are still with them. They become a part of your daily routine that you can’t miss.
In my case, there is a guy let’s just say his name is bunny he used to be my best friend,that’s  what it is called I guess. Now we don’t talk, we had a fight and we we ended our friendship in good terms cause,  we knew each since childhood and we both had a same group of friends and because of that  we didn’t wanted to create a mess in our friends circle. We don’t go along together, we don’t talk, but yet we see have to face each other every day, try to work some things out indirectly together. And it becomes awkward for both of us.
Sometimes a new friendship holds so much promise that we overlook or dismiss subtle signs that there may be problems down the road.
After a certain age, friends tend to take a back seat while other relationships become important in our life.,
My need for friendship was never too much but the moment I formed a friendship, I always thought it was for good and in every way absolute. I’ve found good friends here and there, but even for them, as life situations change, their needs and their focus on the friendship changes. For me it never changes.

I wouldn’t say it is heartbreaking, but definitely it is disappointing that most people cannot form deep relationships in their lives. They can form relationships only according to their needs; they cannot form relationships beyond their needs. A relationship just for the sake of relationship, that is not there in most people. They form a relationship when they need it; when they don’t need it, they break it

In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.

Martin Luther King



Okay,  I  am going  to be twenty years old  now.  I don’t expect much from myself, neither  expect others to expect much from me.

I think expectations is parallel to our very own life. Once you are born people start expecting from you. When you are a kid you are expected to learn to walk, then learn to talk, then go to school, and from this point of life expectations start taking a high way. Then the rest you know I guess, As a Indian boy or girl, or any other , what is expected from you. You study hard, go to nice university, get a Diploma or Graduation, get a job, work hard, earn then marry and after that life pushes you in a stream of water where there is no stopping till the end. And the end is death. Expectations go hand in hand with life. That’s how life is.

When me and my brother were kids, we were the only two kids in our entire  family. And my  father’s younger siblings i.e. my uncle’s and aunt were very well educated. The youngest uncle was a computer engineer, the other was a Orthopedic doctor and even my aunt was a doctor. So everyone thought we would be their successor. And their expectations started growing and over the period of time it shattered like a broken glass. Even we didn’t think things were gonna take such a turn. It never worked out as they thought.

Same like everyone even I had some expectations, which were never meant to fulfill as I thought.

We say we can live better if we rule out expectations from life. But is this true? Well without expecting good and positive how will I be able to work for progress… I work for improvement, because I expect better each time from the previous one. But expectations form another person and to realise them that they don’t fit into your perception of perfect, is very wrong. To save from this we tend to numb ourselves and behave as what is expected from us.

I usually run away from people who makes me remember how wrong I am, always, no matter what the situation is. I have tried to pull all my confidence and positivity and to face them all but nothing works when they dominate. I just don’t like fighting to something that I don’t belong with. I let it go as it is.

We don’t forgive, we don’t forget,expect us.

– expectations